I remember something that Hamish Hendry said in a conference at Astanga Yoga London about three years ago: 

The spell has to be broken.

I suppose that Hamish referred to the spell of our recurring thoughts and habits, especially those that hold us back and prevent us from reaching our full potential in this life.

When it comes to these recurring patterns, you can think about them, or you can step into them. Experience them. Resolve them.

I am a flawed human being, full of fears and imperfections. Also, most of the times, I think that I am pretty ignorant. The fact that I am in this world is proof of how much I still have to learn.

My thirst for understanding, for exploring and for expressing myself, candidly and authentically, is at the very root of everything I do. Sometimes I feel that I am getting nowhere, which leaves me with a lingering feeling of frustration.

I so want to be fully alive, and yet, a part of me is so scared of it. The more I try to rationalize and theorize about life, the less I understand. Which leads me to believe that wisdom does not lie in theories but in direct experience. This is what probably brought me to yoga, a system structured around experiencing rather than just thinking.

Even though I have a capacity for abstract thinking, I must admit that the path of the mind has proven to be a dead-end road. My mind can create theories and arguments, but it hasn't led me to true wisdom. A philosopher is not necessarily an enlightened being, just someone with an innate curiosity and a taste for theories.

Reason by itself doesn’t seem to reveal the mysteries of life, the full scope of what I am, the depth of how I feel. Human interactions teach me so much. The fear of not being enough for someone, the pain of seeing someone go, help me see myself under a brighter light. Still, the veil of confusion is there, but my intention is pure, my resolution stronger.

I could offer one hundred reasons why you should practice yoga, physical, philosophical, moral. I have done it in the past, and I will do it again, because this is a method that works for me. This time though, there is something I wish to be clear about: there is more to life than what we can see, hear and touch. That is something I know. My mind pushes against it, but my heart doesn't. And so, I am starting to surrender.

Theories might entice, compel, and inspire, but down the line, you will have to go somewhere else, explore on your terms, with an open, brave heart. It is not in the mind. It is in the heart.

You can count on the support of teachers, role models, a community, God. You name it. But the path must be walked, and only you can do it.

Roll Up your Sleeves. Get Real. Bring your Ass to Class.

Before I let you go, a few announcements:

  • Our Summer Immersion starts next week. We have a full program and are very excited to have you. We will carry on with Immersion Programs in the future. Reach out should these be of interest, and we will keep you in the loop.

  • The school opens again on Sunday, September 1st on our Regular Schedule. From September, classes will start at 6:30 AM (instead of 6:45). Our doors open when the class starts and close when the class ends. Please, have this in mind and plan your arrival time accordingly.

Love, Carmen